One of the things that I’ve learned during this period of uncertainty during the Covid-10 pandemic is that some days will be better than others. Not that it should have taken something like the worldwide spread of a virus to do this, but it definitely has become much clearer now.
I have been in the unwanted habit of waking up in the morning filled with fear and dread. I’ve had this happen at other points in my life, but over the past four weeks of quarantine, it’s become more frequent. I’ve tried to go back to sleep when this happens, usually to no avail. I’ve tried to begin my morning routine early….sometimes this works, sometimes not. Today has been one of those days when I’ve not been able to shake the feeling for most all the day long.
I know being held captive here at home doesn’t foster mental well-being. I did take a short trip to a local park to get some pictures on Saturday afternoon, but that didn’t seem to help too much. I’ve tried several projects around the house, but that’s not really offered any relief either. Today I went back to teaching online and I put on a brave face for the students I had a video meeting with, but that too fell short of lasting when the meeting was over.
So I’m hoping that the feelings that I’ve had over the past several days will soon pass. I will once again being teaching online tomorrow and I’m hoping getting back in that practice will help. I have a Zoom recovery meeting tonight and those have been uplifting in the past as well.
So here’s to today…it’s not been one of my stellar days. And here’s to tomorrow,,,,may it be better.