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My Obsession with the Number 23

A good number of people have asked why I seem to be so obsessed with the number twenty-three.  I’ll devote a few paragraphs here to give you the condensed version of why the prime number has become a big part of my life.  I don’t expect anyone to claim any significance the way I have, but will ask for a few minutes of your time to give you some background.

For twenty-five of my twenty-nine years in the public school classroom, math was one of the subjects I taught.  To be honest, I never really was that good in math, but my struggle to understand concepts I believe helped me to reach those that were going through similar struggles.  It was the “I’ve been where you are and know how you feel” mentality.  So it suffices to say numbers have always been an important part of my life.

About eight years ago, I was going through a particularly difficult time in my life and to be honest, not a whole lot of anything made any sense.  Separation and eventual divorce, recovery from addiction, and general upheaval has a way of doing that to you.  A fellow teacher, noting that I was really struggling, suggested I take up the hobby of numerology.  While I wasn’t a person that put a whole lot of store in what the numerologists seemed to be implying, it did peak my interest.  Somewhere along the way, I discovered the number twenty-three kept showing up over and over in my life.  That was the seed it took for me to study the number even further.

During my “investigation” I found out that both of my parents were twenty-three years old when I was born.  I was conceived in 1958 and those digits sum to twenty-three as well.  My son is twenty-three years younger than I am and my daughter was born on my sister’s twenty-third birthday.  Needless to say, the beginning of life is important to all and the presence of those numbers at my life’s beginning was too obvious to ignore.  * Note – I can say with some certainty that I was conceived on October 9, 1958, but I don’t want to raise your skepticism too early.

I also took a look at my birthdate in its numerical form:  7/6/1959.  If you sum the first four digits, you get twenty-three.  If you sum the last two digits, you get 14.  Since I am a person of the Christian faith, I began to look at the 23-14 combinations I could find in the Bible.  The first reading that seemed to have significance was Numbers 23:14.  It was there I found the name of the church I attend, Mt. Pisgah.

The next significant passage came from 2 Samuel 23:14, which contains the name “David” and “Bethlehem”.  David is the name I was given at birth and Bethlehem is the name of the town where Mt. Pisgah is located.  The most puzzling verse is Matthew 23:14.  In most translations of the Bible it’s not listed.  The Gospel of Matthew goes from 23:13 to 23:15.

So what did I take from all this you might ask? In a time during my life when not a whole lot was making any sense, I turned to God to find meaning.  I was fortunate enough to be raised in a home where church was an important element.  But it wasn’t until this difficult time in life when any of it began to take hold.  The different scriptures gave me assurance and bolstered my faith to the fact that God knew exactly what was going on in my life.  He had been there at the beginning and I had no reason to question He was still with me now.

So each time I see the number twenty-three, it’s like a “wink from God” that says amidst the chaos of my life, He is ever present…. He always has been and He always will be.  Now do I sometimes carry it a bit too far?  Perhaps so, but it’s something that I’ve held onto during the darkest valleys of life and I’m not about to let go.  I know some may think it’s pure nonsense and insignificant, but then it was God talking to me through a language He knew that I would understand and pay attention to.

And that my friends is the short version.  There are a lot of other situations that the number has kept showing up.  I just have to smile and know that there is One that knows me and will always have my best interest in mind.

David Lee

100 Days of Writing – Day Seventy-Seven

This afternoon while taking a nap, I had a dream unlike any I’d had before…after waking and realizing it was just a dream, I fell back asleep and had a similar dream again. When I woke up for the second time, I had to research the vivid dream’s possible meaning.

This afternoon I laid down to take a short nap. I’ve been having some issues with getting quality amounts of sleep lately and figured it would do me good. It was during that nap that I had a quite vivid dream that seemed so very real.

In the dream, I was leaving my bedroom, heading for the back porch of my home. My eyes went shut and I couldn’t get them to open back. I pried them open with my fingers, only to have them go back shut. I wandered around in the backyard aimlessly, not knowing where I was going. It was a deeply-disturbing type of feeling.

I think woke up and it took me a few seconds to realize the vivid dream was just that – a dream. I then proceeded to go back to sleep and the same dream started all over again. I once again, couldn’t get my eyes to open. I wondered onto the back porch again and then back into the house, whereupon I fell backward, still unable to pry my eyes open for very long. It was at that point that I considered I might be having a stroke and needed to call 911. I then woke up and once again, was relieved to find out it was just a dream.

My research led me to the following messages that the dreams might be trying to convey:

A dream where you cannot open your eyes may be symbolic of how you feel helpless and lost in your waking life. There could be something that is making you anxious and not allowing you to live your life to the fullest. Another interpretation is that we are trying to safeguard ourselves from discomfort.
Often dreams have certain messages for us. To decipher the message as accurately as possible, you need to focus on what is happening in your life. The dream could be giving you a message to help you through an obstacle in your life.
For example, are you going through a challenging time in your life? If so, the dream could be a message to hold on to your courage. Life will always have ups and downs, but hard times will pass. We just need to have the courage to get through them.

https://www.liquidsandsolids.com/cant-open-eyes-in-dream/#:~:text=A%20dream%20where%20you%20cannot,to%20safeguard%20ourselves%20from%20discomfort.

A lot of what I read did sound like my thought life here of late. The past month (in fact, exactly one month today) has been a whirlwind of emotions.

  • helpless and lost – Yes, especially during the first couple of weeks of my most-recent life experience, that’s exactly how I felt. I’ve been able to recover somewhat over the past couple of weeks and these feelings have lessened, but are still present to some extent.
  • trying to safeguard ourselves from discomfort – There’s been quite a bit of discomfort in my life over the past month. I’m guessing the closed-eyes part of the dream might be an effort to hide from all of it.
  • hold onto your courage – This is the message that I tend to drift towards. I know while the past month has been unsettling, I’ve found the courage to continue to move forward with my life. I am reminded that hard times will pass and need to stay the course and be courageous

So there you go. My mid-afternoon dream and what message it might hold. It’s one of the most vivid dreams I’ve had in a long time and am open to the possibility of the message(s) it might possibly carry for me.

David Lee

100 Days of Writing – Day Seventy-Six

I’ve always been obsessed with numbers. I believe they have a story to tell and a path to point to. I recently came upon a guide that shows what certain repeating numbers mean and looked out for those as I went through my day. I found two such patterns and share those with you today.

666 —-> Usually I would tend to shy away from this number combination, but there it was, on a license tag, on the car I had parked behind on the street. So I chose not to ignore it and looked at the chart to see what wisdom it held.

“Reexamine your life and get into better alignment.” – Wow! Does this not ring true for me. Over the past month, I have seen big changes in my life and it’s been difficult to readjust to all the changes. I have actually been doing a lot of reexamination of my life and the choices I have made. I think you could say my life has been out of alignment here of late, so this message is loud and clear. I had my car serviced earlier in the week and they told me it needed an alignment and I’m thinking that I do as well.

999—–> I found this trio of numbers on a dollar bill. I know that 9s are usually associated with endings and wasn’t surprised by what the chart had to tell me.

“Forgiveness. Release control and accept the reality of a certain situation. End of a chapter.” – And once again, WOW! Given the events of my life over the past month, this reading says even more than the first. I’ve in the past been a person who tries to control things in the external environment. That usually hasn’t worked out very well.

I’ve had a hard time accepting my recent reality in life, but accept it I must. And I very definitely recently met the end of a chapter in my life.

So today’s readings were quite insightful and yes, numbers do help point our way.

David Lee

100 Days of Writing – Day Seventy-Five

The power of attraction and all that it encompasses is definitely a real thing. I put it to the test with an intention I’m putting out into the universe.

I recently read an article that details the meanings behind finding a feather. I have to be honest and say I didn’t read the full article. But to further my thoughts that I didn’t see that article by accident, I’m putting it out into the Universe to find a feather sometime over the next three days.

For the past several weeks, I’ve been isolating quite a bit, processing situations in my life. I know to help bring my feather intention into fruition, I will have to get out and about some this weekend. The weather is supposed to cooperate and that’s always a plus.

I’ll let you know if the law of attraction plays out in this experiment of sorts. I’m also including a copy of the article I referenced.

David Lee

Feather Study… I love finding feathers!
WHEN A FEATHER FALLS ON YOUR PATH…
Have you wondered about what it might mean when you find a feather? Feathers are ways that Spirit (of different forms) sends us signs.
For a start, feathers (and other items such as coins, and creatures such as birds, butterflies) and dragonflies), can be signs from the angels, guides, or loved ones in that they are near – that they hear you, guide you and are supporting you. It can be an acknowledgement of you or your thoughts or it is their way of saying hello.
Finding a feather is often a magical moment. I have had many beautiful feather experiences and have watched one fall down from the sky onto my daughter’s lap while we had a picnic in our backyard! In my children are often sign-bearers, delivering me feathers from their playtime travels.
Feathers represent flight and freedom, soaring above, looking from a higher perspective, and moving beyond boundaries and limitations. Different colours and colour combinations can also add extra meaning. (see further below about various colour meanings).
Interpreting the Meaning of the Feather Sign
Whenever you observe a sign, take note of what you were thinking just before it happened, or what is going on in your life at that moment. What could the sign be telling you? Don’t stress yourself about finding a meaning. Even if you do not understand the meaning of the sign at the time, it could become clearer later, or you may be absorbing it in at a sub-conscious level. Just trust that it is a sign and let go of any doubts. Enjoy the way that Spirit works, and embrace the fact you are intermingling with it and paying attention.
Asking for Feather (& other) Signs
You can ask for feather (or other) signs to come to you. And you can be specific. I once asked for confirmation that I had a male guide watching over me (which is what I was feeling and just wanted the magical validation). I asked that if it were true I be shown in the form of a blue feather. I picked blue because it was more rare and unusual, and I saw it as an obviously male colour. Exactly one week later I went to work and as I approached some steps outside there were bright blue feathers everywhere! They were fake ones but it didn’t matter. It was another of those magical moments.
It is just a matter of believing, letting go, and staying aware. Signs often remind us to be at peace and relax into the nature and flow of life. The meanings can at times be profound, and at other times quite simple. The best advice when signs happen is to not put any pressure on yourself to understand it. Take it as an opportunity to connect, take notice of and thank the ever-present Spirit. If your sign is an item such as a feather, you can keep it in a special place whether that be by your bedside, on your dresser, or added to your sacred space / spiritual altar. Or you can gently release it back to nature or where you found it.
How do you know for sure your feather is a sign?
It is especially a sign if it comes in a magical way or you find it in an odd place. Feather signs often appear on your path in front of you, or at your doorstep. Once a feather appeared in my bag, and on my bedroom floor.
This article by Natalia Kuna was published in the magazine “Alive, So Make it Count!”
What Different Feather Colours Mean
The Native American people had a great spiritual understanding about feathers, their colours and their meaning. They would take the utmost care of any feathers that came their way as they saw it as a sacred gift, or a powerful talisman in battle.
When considering feather colours, firstly I always recommend seeking the answer within yourself first. Do you have any particular personal association with the colour? What does the colour make you think of or feel? What are the universal meanings of that colour to your knowledge? Does the feather you found act as an answer to a question or some kind of acknowledgement. Always go with your gut and the first impressions you get, and trust. I recommend noting it down and keeping a journal of signs and synchronicities. You might see more in connection to this sign, so stay alert and enjoy the mystery of the process.
Below is a brief rundown of the possible colour meanings of feathers (though trust your own heart and use this as a general guide – you can experiment with this!):
WHITE – purification, spirituality, hope, trust, faith, protection, peace, Heaven, angels, and also act as blessings and wisdom connected with moon.
RED – the root chakra (money, possessions, security, career), physical vitality/energy/life force/action, good fortune, passion, emotions, courage.
BLUE – throat chakra (communication, acceptance, speaking your truth) peace, inspiration, mental abilities/knowledge, connection with spirits, spiritual protection and psychic awareness.
YELLOW – solar plexus chakra (gut intuition, happiness), blessings and wisdom connected with powerful sun energy, intelligence, playfulness, joy, cheerfulness, mental alertness, vision.
GREEN – (heart chakra – love, emotions, relationships, forgiveness), health, healing, nature, environment, nature spirits, plant spirits, animal spirits, growth, fertility, harmony, unity, money, prosperity, success.
ORANGE (sacral chakra – sex/physical relationships, love, appetitite, attraction), energy, change, optimism, and ambition, success, new ideas, will power, creativity, physical love, new ideas, will power, independence.
PINK – unconditional love, romance, feelings, friendship, caring, compassion, harmony, service, empathy, kindness, gentleness, faithfulness, honour, inspiration.
GREY – peace and neutrality (as it is in the middle of black and white), authenticness, flexibility.
PURPLE – (crown chakra – universal consiousness, spiritual connection), heightened spiritual growth and experiences, higher thought.
BROWN – earth, stability, grounding, endurance, home, friendship, respect.
BLACK – protection, warning, repelling or warning of negative energy, death (as in a closed chapter), mystical wisdom – a sign that you are undergoing a spiritual initiation, growth or increased wisdom. When the feathers are irridescent, oir represents high mystical insight (especially if there is a shiny irridescence).
COLOUR COMBINATIONS:
Black and white mixed feathers can represent protection, or the sense of union.
Black mixed with purple represents a very deep spirituality. i would take it as a feeply mystical sign.
Black, white, and blue mixed feathers denote change on the horizon.
Brown and black striped pattern (like a pheasant/s feather) – balance between the physical and the spiritual.
Brown and white – happiness, and you will go under the radar from psychic or other harm.
Feathers with red and green in them or together would denote that you are being assisted financially. I would take it as a very lucky sign.
Grey and white symbolise hope.
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100 Days of Writing – Day Seventy-Four

“Other people are who they are. You can’t change them. The challenge is to accept them and not try to make them otherwise to suit you.”

This is one fact of life than can be one of the most difficult to accept. We can tend to form a perspective of who someone else is and most often, it’s a projection of who we’d like them to be. Truth be told, this may or may not be who they actually are. And it’s not up to us to tell someone else who or what they should be. We’ve got our plates full deciding that for ourselves.

I’m in the world to do what my Higher Power has assigned me to do. That doesn’t include telling others who they should be. I’m sadly mistaken if I think I know what’s best for anyone else. It’s difficult enough to decide what’s best for ourselves.

And so just for today, I’ll continue to work on myself. I’ll take the lessons that I’ve learned in life and use them to become the best version of myself I can be.

David Lee

100 Days of Writing – Day Seventy-three

Disorganization and clutter – Seemingly, the hallmarks of my life. Now comes the time when I need to get things in order.

It seems that I’ve always had a problem with keeping things organized. I’m mostly a “stacks-up” type of person with stacks of books, journals, clothes, and anything else that has found its way into my life.

I’m in the process of trying to live a more organized life and the progress has been slow. I have so much stuff that some would refer to as junk that are all over most of my house. And while I’ve made some progress, there’s still some way to go.

Tonight I had just finished watching my usual round of Wednesday night television shows and wasn’t yet feeling tired, so I decided to take a box of personal items and put them at various locations throughout the house. It took about twenty minutes, but I got the job done. I also was able to take the large cardboard box that it all was contained in and put it out to be recycled. Slow progress, yes, but I know it can make a big difference.

My disorganized household didn’t get this way overnight and it’s going to take several weeks to get it all in order. I know all the items came from this house, so there has to be a place to put them all. I know being more organized will make my house into a home and also be less stressful on my system.

So here’s to organization. I hope to post a picture of it when I’m all finished.

David Lee

100 Days of Writing – Day Seventy-Two

In July of this past year, I was able to accomplish a major feat – I quit smoking. It was one of the most difficult things I’ve ever done. In the third week of December, I found myself in a difficult emotional situation and fell off the wagon and have had to start over all again.

I was so very proud of myself over the last half of 2022. I had been smoking for quite a few years and the news of a friend’s lung cancer diagnosis was enough to scare me into taking a more serious approach to quitting. So at 5:05 a.m. on July 18, 2022, I took what I thought was my last puff from a cigarette.

I used nicotine lozenges to get through the most difficult first couple of months. But I was then also able to put those down. A lot of symptoms of respiratory dysfunction had disappeared and as I said, I was very proud of myself. I used an app on my phone to keep track of my progress: 154 days without a cigarette, 3090 cigarettes avoided, and over $896 saved. Quite a feat for someone who had tried to quit multiple times without success.

Then, on December 19th, just over five months since I had quit, I had an emotionally straining event occur in my life and for some reason, I decided I needed to pick up a cigarette and have a smoke. It seemed pretty harmless; I would smoke that one pack I had purchased and then smoke no more. But a full two weeks later, I was still at it and had gotten to the point I was smoking a couple of packs a day. I was right back where I had left off five months earlier,,,,and with a vengeance.

A lot of the physical problems had also made a reappearance: chest discomfort, coughing, and that horrid smell. I also found myself filled with shame that I had picked up the deadly habit again, despite the fact I knew it was doing me great harm. I knew I needed to make a concerted effort again to quit.

I picked up a four-pack of nicotine lozenges that I had success with earlier and last night at 5:32 p.m., I took the last puff off what I hope is my last cigarette in this lifetime. I started the counter over and as of this writing, I have 18 hours and 29 minutes without a cigarette, 15 cigarettes avoided, and $4.47 saved.

I’m not going to discount the five months I had abstained from smoking. They gave me the knowledge that I could indeed quit and find alternate avenues to deal with the emotional stressors in life. And while my emotions are still all over the place, I haven’t found it necessary to light up since last night. So as I let the nicotine stay in my system via the nicotine lozenges, I’m glad to have made it this far.

I know it’s still just going to be just one day at a time. But I also know I’m doing what’s best for me and will keep the faith and trust my journey.

David Lee

100 Days of Writing – Day Seventy-One

“Radical acceptance” – I heard the term twice in two days and the universe has created circumstances in which I’ve had the opportunity to practice it.

Acceptance is a concept that I’ve gained an understanding of over the past years of my life. The way it’s worked is that usually there are unwanted, unpleasant circumstances that arise and I’m reminded that “acceptance is the answer to all my problems today.” (Big Book, p. 417).

In a meeting one day recently, a member mentioned the term “radical acceptance.” The next day, while reading a book, I saw the term again. I then proceeded to do some internet research on the topic. Within a week, I had events occur in my life that required I put into practice the radical acceptance I had been researching. Below is a short summary of what it entails.

Radical Acceptance

  • I can find myself in situations in life that I don’t like or understand and say to myself “It shouldn’t be this way.”
  • I need to remind myself that the unpleasant reality is just as it is; “This is what has happened.”
  • I need to review what has happened, in particular, the reasons that it happened as it did. “This is how it happened.”
  • I need to accept the disappointment, sadness, and grief to arise within me and not push them away
  • I need to acknowledge that I can lead a meaningful life despite the pain present with the current situation
  • I need to practice acceptance, even if I don’t do it perfectly…it will come with time

So as I continue to trudge the road of happy destiny, I’ll absolutely accept what has occurred in my life…remind myself that my journey is a human experience, and move forward with the rest of my life with new lessons learned.

David Lee

100 Days of Writing – Day Seventy

Signs, signs, every a sign…. my hobby of collecting soft drink advertising signs has been a staple in my life for over forty years. And although I don’t often get any signs to add to my collection, I have more than enough.

My hobby of collecting soft drink advertising signs started when I was a teen. My great-grandfather owned a general store that I spent a lot of time at, especially during the summer. One of my jobs was to replenish the supply of soft drinks in the coolers each day. I think this is where it all started. I first collected glass bottles and then branched off into the fascinating world of signs.

Some of the signs in my collection are from my great-grandfather’s store. They are the prize of my inventory. I have one huge Coca-Cola sign I rescued off the back side of the store the day before it was torn down. Another one is a rare wooden Coca-Cola sign that would have been on the wall inside the store. If I one day decide to sell any of my collection, these two would definitely not be for sale.

During the early days of my inventory building, signs could be had for a small amount of money. Since that point in time, they have rocketed in price, which is one of the reasons I don’t often buy any more signs to add to my collection.

The best part of my hobby is that I feel it connects me to a pleasant part of my past. I’ve found a lot of different groups online that have a lot of people with the same love for signs that I have. It’s interesting to see what they have in their collections and swap information.

Another one of my great-grandfather’s signs is one that I found on the back wall of one of his barns, which has been long gone. He obviously had gotten it from his store and brought it home to patch up a small hole on one side of the barn. I went searching one day and saw it on the wall and was able to get it down and like with some of the others, it’ll never be up for sale. I’ve included a picture of this sign below.

I have more than enough signs for one lifetime. I don’t even have enough room to display them all. But it’s definitely a part of “my style.”

David Lee

100 Days of Writing – Day Sixty-Nine

It would seem the world has changed in so many ways as a result of the pandemic. Stores being in short supply of what used to be readily available is something I’ve noticed here of late.

I needed to purchase a battery charger for my camera’s battery today and I thought it would be a simple task. I went to the usual outlet that specializes in electronics and wasn’t able to find their display of cameras and equipment. They were nowhere to be found. I finally asked one of the salespersons and he said that he didn’t think they had any of what I was looking for, but told me where I could find it if they did have it. No luck…I couldn’t even find a camera, much less a charger for my battery.

There was another nearby store that usually had a ready supply of cameras and related items. So I went there next and once again, I couldn’t find a section with any cameras, much less a battery charger. When I asked a salesperson if they had any in stock, he said no. I asked him what the deal was with the shortage and he said they are back-ordered many times over and that my best bet was to find one online and order it that way.

Has the pandemic and the resulting fallout truly had this far-reaching effect? Are the purchases of the future going to all be done online? Of recent bigger-priced items I’ve purchased, all that’s been done online. And so, following the salesperson’s lead, I guess I’m going to have to get my battery charger in that manner as well.

My, how times have changed.

David Lee