Daily Readings, Friday, February 28th

Meditation for the Day

No work is of value without preparation. Every spiritual work must have behind it much spiritual preparation. Cut short times of prayer and times of spiritual preparation and many hours of work may be profitless. From the point of view of God, one poor tool working all the time, but doing bad work because of lack of preparation, is of small value compared with the sharp, keen, perfect instrument working for only a short time, but that turns out perfect work because of long hours of spiritual preparation.

Prayer for the Day

I pray that I may spend more time alone with God. I pray that I may get more strength and joy from such times, so that they will add much to my work.

From Twenty-Four Hours a Day


Letting Go of Denial

We are slow to believe that which, if believed, would hurt our feelings.
—Ovid

Most of us in recovery have engaged in denial from time to time. Some of us relied on this tool.

We may have denied events or feelings from our past. We may have denied other people’s problems; we may have denied our own problems, feelings, thoughts, wants, or needs. We denied the truth.

Denial means we didn’t let ourselves face reality, usually because facing that particular reality would hurt. It would be a loss of something: trust, love, family, perhaps a marriage, a friendship, or a dream. And it hurts to lose something or someone.

Denial is a protective device, a shock absorber for the soul. It prevents us from acknowledging reality until we feel prepared to cope with that particular reality. People can shout and scream the truth at us, but we will not see or hear it until we are ready.

We are sturdy yet fragile beings. Sometimes, we need time to get prepared, time to ready ourselves to cope. We do not let go of our need to deny by beating ourselves into acceptance; we let go of our need to deny by allowing ourselves to become safe and strong enough to cope with the truth.

We will do this, when the time is right. We do not need to punish ourselves for having denied reality; we need only love ourselves into safety and strength so that each day we are better equipped to face and deal with the truth. We will face and deal with reality – on our own time schedule, when we are ready, and in our Higher Power’s timing. We do not have to accept chastisement from anyone, including ourselves, for this schedule.

We will know what we need to know, when it’s time to know it.

Today, I will concentrate on making myself feel safe and confident. I will let myself have my awarenesses on my own time schedule.

From The Language of Letting Go

First Two Days…

I’ve nearly completed the first two days of my hiatus from social media for the season of Lent. It has been quite a bit easier to navigate than my first two years attempting this and I think it will not be as difficult as it’s been in the past.

The first thing I had to do was to removed Facebook and Instagram applications from my phone. I also found out that the two FB messengers I had installed could work independently and so I also had to remove them as well. Quite a few times over the past two days, I’ve look at their usual place on my phone’s screen, only to remember I’d removed them.

I’ve continued to post my two meditations in the morning. I accomplished this by bookmarking the site the two reading are found and posting them both as one blog entry. This has required minimal effort and seems to have achieved its goal of providing them for my FB readers that truly enjoy reading them each day.

I’ve also continued to post puns each day, although my goal is to publish just one instead of the usual three. I also posted several weather readings from my home weather station, as well as pictures that I’ve taken during the day. Best I can figure, I can post an album of these when I return on Easter Sunday.

One new venture that I’m exploring is the creation of a podcast for broadcast each week. I had previously downloaded an app for my phone and have been experimenting with it to make sure the podcasts can be posted on the WordPress website. The only question now is what content I would include on the podcast. I hope to come up with an idea or two during this next weekend and hopefully broadcast it this next weekend.

So far, so good is what I’d say. I do miss certain parts of social media, but I think the forty-nine days I’m going to spend away will bear its own fruit.

David Lee