Maniac

Just a steel town girl on a Saturday night
Looking for the fight of her life in the real time world
No one sees her at all they all say she's crazy

Locking rhythm to the beat of her heart
Changing movement into light
She haS danced into the danger zone
When the dancer becomes the dance

It can cut you like a knife if the fight becomes the fire
On the wire between will and what will be

She's a maniac, maniac on the floor (I sure know)
And she's dancing like she's never danced before
She's a maniac, maniac on the floor (I sure know)
And she's dancing like she's never danced before

She's a maniac, maniac at the show,
And she's dancing like she's never danced before
She's a maniac, maniac on the floor (I sure know)
And she's dancing like she's never danced before

On the ice blue line of insanity is a place most never see
It's a hard won place of mystery, touch it but can't hold it
You work all your life, for that moment in time
It could come or pass you by it's a push shove world
But there's always a chance if the hunger stays the night

There's a cold kinetic heat
Struggling stretching for the peak
Never stopping with her head against the wind

She's a maniac, maniac on the floor (I sure know)
And she's dancing like she's never danced before
She's a maniac, maniac on the floor (I sure know)
And she's dancing like she's never danced before

It can cut you like a knife if the fight becomes the fire
On the wire between will and what will be
She's a maniac, maniac on the floor (I sure know)
And she's dancing like she's never danced before

Ain’t No Stopping Us Now…

Ain't No Stoppin Us Now!
We're on the move!
Ain't No Stoppin Us Now!
We've got the groove!

There's been so many things that's held us down.
But now it looks like things are finally comin' around.
I know we've got, a long long way to go,
And where we'll end up, I don't know.

But we won't let nothin' hold us back,
We're putting our selves together,
We're polishing up our act!
If you felt we've been held down before,

I know you'll refuse to be held down anymore!
Don't you let nothing, nothing,
Stand in your way!
I want ya'll to listen, listen,

To every word I say, every word I say!
Ain't No Stoppin Us Now!
We're on the move!
Ain't No Stoppin Us Now!

We've got the groove!
Ain't No Stoppin Us Now!
We're on the move!
Ain't No Stoppin Us Now!

We've got the groove!
I know you know someone that has a negative vow,
And if you're trying to make it they only push you aside.
They really don't have, no where to go.

Ask them where they're going, they don't know.
But we won't let nothin' hold us back,
We're gonna put our selves together,
We're gonna polish up our act!

And if you've ever been held down before,
I know you'll refuse to be held down anymore!
Don't you let nothing, nothing,
Stand in your way!

I want ya'll to listen, listen,
To every word I say, every word I say!
Ain't No Stoppin Us Now!
We're on the move!

Ain't No Stoppin Us Now!
We've got the groove!
Ain't No Stoppin Us Now!
We're on the move!

Ain't No Stoppin Us Now!
We've got the groove!

He’s So Shy…

When I first saw him standin' there
I longed to speak but did not dare
Something inside whispered to me
You'd better move in carefully

And then he smiled and turned away
That told me all he could not say
That's when I knew
He wanted me too
But I had to do some breakin' through

He's so shy
He's so shy
That sweet little boy who caught my eye
He's so shy
He's so shy
And he's much too good to let get by, oh yes he is

Now holding him gently through the night
Nothin' has ever felt so right
And I'm so glad I took the time
That I had to take to make him mine

He can still do things to my heart
Just like he did right from the start
Each time I see
That quality
That never stops attracting me

He's so shy (so good looking)
He's so shy (he really got me going)
That sweet little boy who caught my eye
He's so shy (I'm so glad I got to know him)
He's so shy ('cause he's one in a million)
And I'll love him until the day I die
Oh, yes I will

He's so shy (that's why I love my baby)
He's so shy (you know he's driving me crazy)
That sweet little boy who caught my eye
He's so shy (I've got a long time to know him)
He's so shy (I'm so glad I got to show him)
That I'll love him until the day I die, oh yeah
He's so shy
Oooh-wee, oooh-wee, baby
He's so shy
Oooh-wee, oooh-wee, baby
He's so shy
Oooh-wee, oooh-wee, baby
He's so shy

Lotta Love

It’s gonna take a lotta love
To change the way things are
It’s gonna take a lotta love
Or we won’t get too far

So if you are out there waitin’
I hope you show up soon
‘Cause my head needs relatin’
Not solitude

It’s gonna take a lotta love
To get us through the night
It’s gonna take a lotta love
To make things work out right

So if you look in my direction
And we don’t see eye to eye
My heart needs protection
And so do I

Gotta lotta love, ah
Gotta lotta love, ah

It’s gonna take a lotta love
It’s gonna take a lotta love
It’s gonna take a lotta love

Bad Girls….

Donna Summer – Bad Girls Lyrics

from album: Bad Girls (1979)Toot toot hey Beep Beep

Bad girls
Talking about the sad girls
Sad girls
Talking about the bad girls, yeah

See them out on the street at night, walkin’
Picking up on all kinds of strangers
If the price is right you can score
If you’re pocket’s nice
But you want a good time
You ask yourself, who they are?
Like everybody else, they come from near and far

Bad girls
Talking about the sad girls
Sad girls
Talking about the bad girls, yeah

Friday night and the strip is hot
Sun’s gone down and they’re about to trot
Spirit’s high and they look hot
Do you wanna get down
Now don’t you ask yourself, who they are?
Like everybody else, they wanna be a star

Sad girls, sad girls
You such a dirty bad girl
Beep Beep uh, uh
You bad girl, you sad girl
You such a dirty bad girl
Beep Beep uh, uh

Now you and me, we are both the same
But you call yourself by different names
Now you mama won’t like it when she finds out
Her girl is out at night

Toot toot hey Beep Beep

Hey mister, have you got a dime?
Mister, do you want to spend some time, oh yeah
I got what you want
You got what I need
I’ll be your baby
Come and spend it on me
Hey mister
I’ll spend some time with you
With you, you’re fine, with you
Bad girls
They’re just bad girls
Talkin’ about sad girls
Sad girls
Hey, hey mister
Got a dime?

Toot toot hey beep

Ain’t Nobody…

Verse 1]
Captured effortlessly
That’s the way it was
Happened so naturally
I did not know it was love
The next thing I felt was you
Holding me close
What was I gonna do?
I let myself go

[Refrain]
And now we’re flyin’ through the stars
I hope this night will last forever

[Verse 2]
I’ve been waitin’ for you
It’s been so long
I knew just what I would do
When I heard your song
You filled my heart with a kiss
Ya gave me freedom
You knew I could not resist
I needed someone

[Refrain]
And now we’re flyin’ through the stars
I hope this night will last forever
Oh oh oh oh

Navigating Dating Websites…

In an effort to try to find someone to meet in the realm of dating and such, I’m giving another trying to a dating website. I’ve tried several in the seventeen-plus years I’ve been divorced and in fact got my first post-marriage date on one. But by virtue of the fact I’m still single, let’s just say they haven’t worked as well as I might have liked. Given my current status and realizing I had to put forth some effort, I’ve gotten a paid membership on Match.com. In the short period of time I’ve been on there, I have remembered some of the ins and outs of internet dating.

  • Dating websites definitely have an upside- you have a chance to meet people you wouldn’t ordinarily have an opportunity to meet. You are also “available” 24/7 to anyone who might be in the market. The one downside that I’ve noticed in this realm is that many of the potential dates are farther away than either of us would be willing to travel.
  • Dating websites contain a lot of profiles of users, including those who don’t have paid memberships and can’t really communicate with you. There are also those who completed a profile and are no longer visiting the site. I supposed they didn’t have much luck and had forgotten to hide or delete their profiles. I believe those people still show up in your searches and attempting to communicate with them, of course, is fruitless.
  • Most of the people I have an interest in initially don’t seem to have an interest in me….Most of the people who express an interest in me, I’m not having the mutual feeling.
  • If you do find someone who communicates, it’s usually very slow and cumbersome. You both have to be on the site at the same time to have anything close to a meaningful conversation. And I’ve also learned that most women aren’t willing to share their phone numbers to make communication easier. I understand why they might be hesitant to do so, but still….
  • I think some of those on the sites aren’t really all that interested in actually meeting someone and get together. Perhaps they’re just doing it to have something to do, I’m not sure.
  • My chances of meeting someone to get together with or ever having a chance to get to know on a more personal level seems to be slim. The pandemic doesn’t make things any easier. Usually the conversation in emails last for several days and then dies out because of lack of interest. I try to be a frequent communicator, but when the responses are slow to come about, my interest starts to wane.

I have a membership of several months and will make use of it, but am realistic and know that nothing meaningful might come from it. I am sincerely hoping I’m wrong, but I don’t think so at this point.

And then again, “the one” might just be on those pages of pictures I look at and we just haven’t found each other yet…one can only hope.

David Lee

Reach Out I’ll Be There…

“Reach Out I’ll Be There”

Now if you feel that you can’t go on (can’t go on)
Because all of your hope is gone (all your hope is gone)
And your life is filled with much confusion (much confusion)
Until happiness is just an illusion (happiness is just an illusion)
And your world around is crumbling down, darlin’

(Reach out) Come on girl reach on out for me
(Reach out) Reach out for me
Hah, I’ll be there with a love that will shelter you
I’ll be there with a love that will see you through

When you feel lost and about to give up (to give up)
‘Cause your best just ain’t good enough (just ain’t good enough)
And your feel the world has grown cold (has grown cold)
And your drifting out all on your own (drifting out on your own)
And you need a hand to hold, darlin’

(Reach out) Come on girl, reach out for me
(Reach out) Reach out for me
Hah, I’ll be there to love and comfort you
And I’ll be there to cherish and care for you

(I’ll be there to always see you through)
(I’ll be there to love and comfort you)

I can tell the way you hang your head (hang your head)
You’re not in love now, now you’re afraid (you’re afraid)
And through your tears you look around (look around)
But there’s no peace of mind to be found (no peace of mind to be found)
I know what your thinking
You’re a loner, no love of your own, but darling

(Reach out) Come on girl reach out for me
Reach out, just look over your shoulder
I’ll be there to give you all the love you need
And I’ll be there you can always depend on me
I’ll be there

Six Feet Under…

Billie Eilish Lyrics

“Six Feet Under”

“Six Feet Under”

Help, I lost myself again
But I remember you
Don’t come back, it won’t end well
But I wish you’d tell me too

Our love is six feet under
I can’t help but wonder
If our grave was watered by the rain
Would roses bloom?
Could roses bloom
Again?

Retrace my lips
Erase your touch
It’s all too much for me
Blow away
Like smoke in air
How can you die carelessly?

Our love is six feet under
I can’t help but wonder
If our grave was watered by the rain
Would roses bloom?
Could roses bloom?

They’re playing our sound
Laying us down tonight
And all of these clouds
Crying us back to life
But you’re cold as a knife

Six feet under
I can’t help but wonder
If our grave was watered by the rain
Bloom
Bloom

Again

Help, I lost myself again
But I remember you

Getting My Act Together

The past three months have been anything but easy. I had settled in to teach for the rest of the school year when the pandemic hit and along with that, having to learn how to teach remotely on the fly. I was fortunate to have two co-teachers that excelled at this monumental undertaking and that helped immensely. A couple of weeks ago saw an end to this interim gig, however, and the summer began.

There are lot of things that I’d normally be doing that are no longer options. I’d undoubtedly be spend a part of my time at the Barnes & Noble Cafe’, my home away from home, but it’s not been reopened for seating. I usually would go out to eat at least once a day and although some of the venues have reopened, I’ve mainly done pick-up or more recently, had it delivered. I resigned my post as a photographer for the local newspaper, so that’s not anything that gets me out and about and moving.

Perhaps the most difficult part of it all has been the loneliness that has set in here of late. It’s a deep-seeded feeling, especially at night, that finds that desire for human contact once again unfulfilled. As an effort to fill this void, I’ve even this week gotten memberships in a couple of dating websites, but thus far that really hasn’t led to much.

I know in recovery not to run from my emotions and feelings. This past week, I seem to have gotten stuck in that feeling of loneliness and know I need to work through it, but am not sure exactly how to go about doing that. I’ve reached out to several friends along the way and they’ve offered me support, but the fact remains the feeling lingers.

I lead an online recovery meeting once a week and brought this up as a topic one evening. I heard a lot of good experience, strength, and hope and quite a few of the members thanked me for addressing the topic that you don’t hear talked about too often in meetings. So I had done what I knew to do,,,,to reach out and to be of service…and wouldn’t you know after that meeting, I felt more alone and lonely than I did at any point.

So I’l continue to trudge along, accepting my feelings for what they are. I’ll still make efforts to reach out, but know in my heart that if the loneliness is to subside, I’ll have to stay the course I’m currently on. A lot of what I know is what NOT to do…I’m pretty familiar with all that.

So I guide my thoughts this day to happier times in my life and will put my intentions out into the universe that my loneliness, in all its many forms, will subside when it’s run it’s course.

David Lee