Mistakes,,,,I’ve made more than a few

Life has a way of teaching you the lessons you need to be taught, many times without your awareness. I recently have been humbled by events in my life that have caused me to realize that I don’t always make good decisions about the most important of things.

You think you’re doing well in life…everything seems to be going well and you have no reason to question what you’re experiencing. And then, over time, your situations change and you make decisions based on emotions you’re feeling at the time. Decisions that affect not only you, but others as well. And those decisions can cause unwarranted pain for others, which was never your intention.

Later on down the road, you have other circumstances come into play because of other decisions you’ve made and you are humbled to realize how very human you are. Capable of making mistakes, some larger than others, that cause your life to change forever. I’d like to say that it was all for the sake of teaching you important lessons, but that’s just my take on things. In the meantime, there are others you’ve left in your path that are suffering as well.

So just for today, I’m humbling myself with the situations I’ll be facing over the next several weeks. I know that change many times provokes fearful feelings and there are plenty of those that have been occupying my mind. But at the same time, I also realize that I don’t have control over a lot of what has transpired and what will transpire over the next several days and weeks.

Above all else, I’m reminded not to ever lost contact with my spiritual being. The decisions I’ve made when not in close contact with my God have traditionally not turned out well. It takes times and events such as those I face to help you realize never to lose sight of the sunlight of the Spirit.

So I pray this day for God’s guidance, wisdom, and strength…I pray for those whose lives I have left with unanswered questions, that they will experience happiness beyond compare. Meanwhile, I face my tomorrow and the next with uncertainty and anxious thoughts and more mindful to be careful with the direction I choose in this life.

David Lee

There is nothing to fear…

“The presence of fear is a sure sign that you are trusting in your own strength. The awareness that there is nothing to fear shows that somewhere in your mind, though not necessarily in a place you recognize as yet, you have remembered God, and let His strength take the place of your weakness. The instant you are willing to this there is indeed nothing to fear.” – A Course in Miracles

Help for Anxiety: Facing Your Fears Will Heal Your Brain | Psychology Today

Big Wave Dave’s “Spin of the Day” for Thursday, October 22nd.

LyricsShe got out of town
On the railway New York bound
Took all except my name
Another alien on Broadway
There’s some things in this world
You just can’t change
Some things you can’t see
Until it gets too lateAnd baby, baby, baby
When all your love is gone
Who will save me
From all I’m up against out in this world
And maybe, maybe, maybe
You’ll find something
That’s enough to keep you
But if the bright lights don’t receive you
You should turn yourself around
And come on homeI got a hole in me now
Yeah, I got a scar I can talk about
She keeps a picture of me
In her apartment in the city
Some things in this world
Man, they don’t make sense
Some things you don’t need
Until they leave you
And they’re things that you miss, you sayBaby, baby, baby
When all your love is gone
Who will save meFrom all I’m up against out in this world
And maybe, maybe, maybe
You’ll find something
That’s enough to keep you
But if the bright lights don’t receive you
You should turn yourself around
And come on homeLet that city take you in, come on home
Let that city spit you out, come on home
Let that city take you down, yeah
For God sakes turn aroundBaby, baby, baby
When all your love is gone
Who will save me
From all I’m up against in this worldNow well, maybe, maybe, maybe
You’ll find something
That’s enough to keep you
But if the bright lights don’t receive you, wellTurn yourself around, girl
Come on home
Yeah, come on home
Baby, baby, baby, baby
Come on home
Yeah, come on home
Yeah, come on home
Yeah, come on home
Baby, baby, baby, baby
Come on home

Chasing….

Lyrics

I just wanna run away

Find somewhere that feels safe

Find somewhere the bad days

Don’t come as often in this sad phase

Somewhere I can be alone

Where I don’t have to run away from my flaws

And I don’t have to be afraid of my thoughts

With this high, this high that I’ve been chasing

Doesn’t have an exit

I don’t learn my lesson

I don’t see no ending in sight

I don’t feel the best when I try

Holdin’ my head up high, but it’s not workin’

Makin’ you cry makes me feel like a bad person (bad person)

And something’s got a hold on me

They don’t see the world I see

Heartbeat in my chest feels weak

It’s really starting to weigh on me, yeah

I just wanna run away

And find somewhere that feels safe

Find somewhere the bad days

Don’t come as often in this sad phase

Somewhere I can be alone

Where I don’t have to run away from my flaws

And I don’t have to be afraid of my thoughts

With this high, this high that I’ve been chasing

Always likes a sad trip

And ruin all my friendships

Way too many questions in my mind

I don’t have the answers but I try

Holdin’ my head up high, but it’s not workin’, yeah

Makin’ you sad makes me feel like a bad person (bad person, person)

I said some awful things last week

Messin’ with my self-esteem

Mixed up my priorities

It’s really startin’ to weigh on me, yeah

I just wanna run away

Find somewhere that feels safe

Find somewhere the bad days

Don’t come as often in this sad phase

Somewhere I can be alone

Where I don’t have to run away from my flaws

And I don’t have to be afraid of my thoughts

With this high, this high that I’ve been chasing

It’s Been a Long While…

It’s been a long while since I’ve written anything on my blog. Lots has happened over the past several months and I’m just now able to catch my breath and reflect on it all.

The Covid pandemic is still ever-present and I’ve seen it touching the lives of more and more people I know. The world as we knew it will never be the same, of that I am sure. I’ve just completed an eight week interim position at an elementary school and there were those days when I questioned whether or not having children gather together was a good idea. There were those days when I questioned whether it was in my best interest to be there.

I’ll probably start writing more blogs to share on what my life experiences have been. Like most, I’m going through a time of confusion and stress brought on by it all. I know that I have to be true to myself and follow what steps are put before me and that’s not always easy to do. I make plenty of poor decisions it would seem and my choices are not always in everyone’s best interests. But I figure I’m doing the best I can with what I’ve been given to work with, which at this point is at least a roof over my head and a loving family. There is much to be grateful for even in the midst of the turmoil of life.

David Lee

Maniac

Just a steel town girl on a Saturday night
Looking for the fight of her life in the real time world
No one sees her at all they all say she's crazy

Locking rhythm to the beat of her heart
Changing movement into light
She haS danced into the danger zone
When the dancer becomes the dance

It can cut you like a knife if the fight becomes the fire
On the wire between will and what will be

She's a maniac, maniac on the floor (I sure know)
And she's dancing like she's never danced before
She's a maniac, maniac on the floor (I sure know)
And she's dancing like she's never danced before

She's a maniac, maniac at the show,
And she's dancing like she's never danced before
She's a maniac, maniac on the floor (I sure know)
And she's dancing like she's never danced before

On the ice blue line of insanity is a place most never see
It's a hard won place of mystery, touch it but can't hold it
You work all your life, for that moment in time
It could come or pass you by it's a push shove world
But there's always a chance if the hunger stays the night

There's a cold kinetic heat
Struggling stretching for the peak
Never stopping with her head against the wind

She's a maniac, maniac on the floor (I sure know)
And she's dancing like she's never danced before
She's a maniac, maniac on the floor (I sure know)
And she's dancing like she's never danced before

It can cut you like a knife if the fight becomes the fire
On the wire between will and what will be
She's a maniac, maniac on the floor (I sure know)
And she's dancing like she's never danced before

Ain’t No Stopping Us Now…

Ain't No Stoppin Us Now!
We're on the move!
Ain't No Stoppin Us Now!
We've got the groove!

There's been so many things that's held us down.
But now it looks like things are finally comin' around.
I know we've got, a long long way to go,
And where we'll end up, I don't know.

But we won't let nothin' hold us back,
We're putting our selves together,
We're polishing up our act!
If you felt we've been held down before,

I know you'll refuse to be held down anymore!
Don't you let nothing, nothing,
Stand in your way!
I want ya'll to listen, listen,

To every word I say, every word I say!
Ain't No Stoppin Us Now!
We're on the move!
Ain't No Stoppin Us Now!

We've got the groove!
Ain't No Stoppin Us Now!
We're on the move!
Ain't No Stoppin Us Now!

We've got the groove!
I know you know someone that has a negative vow,
And if you're trying to make it they only push you aside.
They really don't have, no where to go.

Ask them where they're going, they don't know.
But we won't let nothin' hold us back,
We're gonna put our selves together,
We're gonna polish up our act!

And if you've ever been held down before,
I know you'll refuse to be held down anymore!
Don't you let nothing, nothing,
Stand in your way!

I want ya'll to listen, listen,
To every word I say, every word I say!
Ain't No Stoppin Us Now!
We're on the move!

Ain't No Stoppin Us Now!
We've got the groove!
Ain't No Stoppin Us Now!
We're on the move!

Ain't No Stoppin Us Now!
We've got the groove!

He’s So Shy…

When I first saw him standin' there
I longed to speak but did not dare
Something inside whispered to me
You'd better move in carefully

And then he smiled and turned away
That told me all he could not say
That's when I knew
He wanted me too
But I had to do some breakin' through

He's so shy
He's so shy
That sweet little boy who caught my eye
He's so shy
He's so shy
And he's much too good to let get by, oh yes he is

Now holding him gently through the night
Nothin' has ever felt so right
And I'm so glad I took the time
That I had to take to make him mine

He can still do things to my heart
Just like he did right from the start
Each time I see
That quality
That never stops attracting me

He's so shy (so good looking)
He's so shy (he really got me going)
That sweet little boy who caught my eye
He's so shy (I'm so glad I got to know him)
He's so shy ('cause he's one in a million)
And I'll love him until the day I die
Oh, yes I will

He's so shy (that's why I love my baby)
He's so shy (you know he's driving me crazy)
That sweet little boy who caught my eye
He's so shy (I've got a long time to know him)
He's so shy (I'm so glad I got to show him)
That I'll love him until the day I die, oh yeah
He's so shy
Oooh-wee, oooh-wee, baby
He's so shy
Oooh-wee, oooh-wee, baby
He's so shy
Oooh-wee, oooh-wee, baby
He's so shy

Lotta Love

It’s gonna take a lotta love
To change the way things are
It’s gonna take a lotta love
Or we won’t get too far

So if you are out there waitin’
I hope you show up soon
‘Cause my head needs relatin’
Not solitude

It’s gonna take a lotta love
To get us through the night
It’s gonna take a lotta love
To make things work out right

So if you look in my direction
And we don’t see eye to eye
My heart needs protection
And so do I

Gotta lotta love, ah
Gotta lotta love, ah

It’s gonna take a lotta love
It’s gonna take a lotta love
It’s gonna take a lotta love

Bad Girls….

Donna Summer – Bad Girls Lyrics

from album: Bad Girls (1979)Toot toot hey Beep Beep

Bad girls
Talking about the sad girls
Sad girls
Talking about the bad girls, yeah

See them out on the street at night, walkin’
Picking up on all kinds of strangers
If the price is right you can score
If you’re pocket’s nice
But you want a good time
You ask yourself, who they are?
Like everybody else, they come from near and far

Bad girls
Talking about the sad girls
Sad girls
Talking about the bad girls, yeah

Friday night and the strip is hot
Sun’s gone down and they’re about to trot
Spirit’s high and they look hot
Do you wanna get down
Now don’t you ask yourself, who they are?
Like everybody else, they wanna be a star

Sad girls, sad girls
You such a dirty bad girl
Beep Beep uh, uh
You bad girl, you sad girl
You such a dirty bad girl
Beep Beep uh, uh

Now you and me, we are both the same
But you call yourself by different names
Now you mama won’t like it when she finds out
Her girl is out at night

Toot toot hey Beep Beep

Hey mister, have you got a dime?
Mister, do you want to spend some time, oh yeah
I got what you want
You got what I need
I’ll be your baby
Come and spend it on me
Hey mister
I’ll spend some time with you
With you, you’re fine, with you
Bad girls
They’re just bad girls
Talkin’ about sad girls
Sad girls
Hey, hey mister
Got a dime?

Toot toot hey beep