100 Days of Writing – Day Fifty

Forty-eight days in and can still have that urge…. It’s been forty-eight days since I decided that I was going to quit smoking. It’s actually longer for that intention, but actually not smoking has been nearly seven weeks. And even now, after not having smoked 965 cigarettes, I can still get that urge. Twice I’veContinue reading “100 Days of Writing – Day Fifty”

100 Days of Writing – Day Forty-Eight

So many things we can become addicted to,,,,but why? I was talking with a friend last night about my continuing quest to be a non-smoker, lamenting how difficult some parts of the journey had been. She was tackling a similar issue with certain types of food she had been avoiding, for about the same lengthContinue reading “100 Days of Writing – Day Forty-Eight”

100 Days of Writing – Day Forty-Five

Smoking cessation – Day 36 I’m continuing on my quest to be a long-term nonsmoker. Today is day number thirty-six and although I’m still using nicotine lozenges, I haven’t found it necessary to light up a cigarette in five weeks. I’m realizing there were distinct reasons why I chose to smoke,,,up to a pack aContinue reading “100 Days of Writing – Day Forty-Five”

100 Days of Writing – Day Forty

Just random writing today…whatever pops into my head. Today is Tuesday. I’ve had over one month now since my last cigarette and even though I still get cravings, I haven’t found it necessary to pick up a cigarette. For that, I am grateful. I’ve avoided smoking 584 cigarettes over the twenty-nine-day period and have savedContinue reading “100 Days of Writing – Day Forty”

100 Days of Writing – Day Thirty-Nine

What are five things I can do when I get the urge to smoke? I have a good friend Michael who, like myself has in the past been addicted to smoking. Although I was addicted to cigarettes and him to smoking a pipe, the results were much the same: nicotine became addictive and began affectingContinue reading “100 Days of Writing – Day Thirty-Nine”

100 Days of Writing – Day Thirty-Seven

There was a time in my life, over twenty years ago now, when I was going through a particularly difficult time in my life. I was struggling with a lot of life changes and wasn’t really sure what to do with my meandering thoughts and ample extra time. One Friday night, I went to theContinue reading “100 Days of Writing – Day Thirty-Seven”

100 Days of Writing – Day Thirty-Six

Today is a milestone day for me in many ways. It was twenty years ago today that I began my journey of abstaining from alcohol use. That’s a total of 7305 days in all. August 10, 2002 also marked the beginning of my involvement in the recovery community, of which I am still a member.Continue reading “100 Days of Writing – Day Thirty-Six”

100 Days of Writing – Day Thirty-Five

“Acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing or situation—some fact of my life—unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be atContinue reading “100 Days of Writing – Day Thirty-Five”

100 Days of Writing – Day Thirty-Four

Asking for help. It can be one of the most difficult things we do in life, but often it’s literally a life-saver. I found myself in what I consider to be the worst days of my life. My addiction to alcohol had been one of the primary reasons for my marital separation and eventual divorce.Continue reading “100 Days of Writing – Day Thirty-Four”

100 Days of Writing – Day Thirty-Three

Smoking Cessation Continues….Day Twenty It’s been nearly three weeks since I’ve smoked a cigarette and although I’m still dealing with cravings and urges to smoke, I haven’t given into those and remain smoke-free. My last cigarette was on Monday, July 18th at 5:05 a.m. I’ve been using nicotine lozenges to replace some of the nicotineContinue reading “100 Days of Writing – Day Thirty-Three”