Once again, it’s been a while since I’ve done any blog entries. And so on this early rainy Friday morning, I thought I’d put some of thoughts down to share.
Certainly a crazy world we’re living in here of late. Not only are we in the midst of a pandemic, but it’s also become a political debate of sorts as well. A lot of folks it would seem are throwing any scientific evidence out the window and have started going about their business as if the virus is over with and done. And according to what I’ve read and researched, nothing could be further from the truth.
In addition to that situation, we’ve been dealing with a lot racial strife due to the actions of police officers in Minneapolis….lots of protests and outright rioting. There are perhaps some positive changes that are going to result from it all, but for right now it’s caused more division than anything.
So we are over half-way though June, with July knocking on the door, I realize that we’re going to be half-way through this year. A year to end all years it would seem. I definitely took a lot of the simpler things in life for granted, that I know. We can only hope that the second half of the year offers some resolution to the problems we’ve experienced during the first half.
On a personal level, it’s been more difficult this past week or so to deal with the isolation from others. I did go have lunch with my parents and daughter and that was nice. I’ve been making my every-other-day runs to get supplies at the store that’s just up the street. But I genuinely desire to have face-to-face contact with others, and that’s just not happened for me. And I don’t know that there’s a simple solution to that.
My latest attempt at initiating a relationship didn’t pan out as I had hoped and felt it would. I understand that others have their priorities in life and I have to be acceptive of that fact. I’ve reached another one of those times when I pretty much resign myself to the fact that this is just the way it’s supposed to be in my life at this point. But the loneliness seems to be a bit more difficult to deal with these past couple of weeks. I was leading a Zoom online recovery meeting and brought loneliness up as a topic. I heard lots of good experience, strength, and hope during the hour we met. But ironically, the end result at the conclusion of the meeting was that I felt more lonely than I did at the outset.
So as the rain pours and pours outside, as it has most of the week, I prepare to get some sleep and will be ready to start another day when daylight returns. Most of the time I don’t mind the rain, but we’ve had more than our fair share this week. Just one of those parts of life, as with most others things I’ve mentioned, that I don’t have any control over.
I’ll continue in the upcoming days to remember my mantra for this difficult time, “Keep the faith, trust the journey” and know that all will eventually one day be well. At some point, when we don’t know, the virus will be reduced to the point we can go about our more normal routines….Hopefully we will be able to withstand the conflicts of the past several weeks and begin to heal as a country….And I will definitely know that if a relationship is to be a part of my life, it will be and if not, then I’ll be okay with that as well.
Until next time,