A friend reminded me this evening that it had been a while since I’d posted anything on this site. I knew it had been at least a couple of days, but didn’t know it had been four days since I’d last posted anything.
No real excuses here, but thinking back I can try to figure out why.
After posting on here during Lent, I established a good habit of sharing on this site each day. And with the virus outbreak, it gave me pause to have a lot of thinking to put into words. But as the days have continued to linger, I’ve found I’ve lost interest in some of the things that I knew to be good for me and hopefully for others as well.
A part of it was the fact that I had gone back to school for the first time in over five weeks to do some checking of work that my students had turned in. It was another surreal experience in all of this, walking into my classroom as if we’d never left. Kids’ books and pencils and jackets and such were left just as they were on March 12 and it was like any minute they’d come walking in the classroom to start another day….but I knew that wasn’t going to happen. And then the very next day, to no big surprise, it was announced that they wouldn’t be coming back at all this school year. I guess that kind of stuck with me longer than it should…but things have a habit of doing that.
Another week of online learning started today and there were several bumps along the way. I did have a video meeting with my homeroom class and it was good to see their smiling faces. I know I’m supposed to be a positive force in their lives, but on this particular day, they were doing much the same for me. I guess knowing that they’d never be in my class again this school year made things a little bit different today than in past video meetings.
So there you go…just a myriad of thoughts running through my head…it’s just past 12:34 am…one of those times I look and see the sequence and am reminded that things are not by chance or coincidence,,,that there is order amidst the chaos. And such is the journey I travel this night….